The Aftermath of Apocalypse

There is a Bulgarian saying that goes more or less like this: once the carriage has turned over, there are a lot of ways (to take).

We people tend to then convoke commissions and decide on further actions. Obviously, as we cannot decide on previous ones.

From preventing terrorist acts to forgetting the toaster on, it is the easiest and most senseless thing to do. No commission will return the lives of the victims or make the charred bread edible.

There are we, humans, and beyond us and our mistakes that thing we call providence.

I could also easily write it with capital because it is like the leaves rustling in the wind: it is the way we can touch and see in our lives the Invisible, Transcendent.

In many cases we tend to protest against it when we dislike it or disagree with its results.

If we intend to do something against His will and He prevents us from doing so, making us pay for our mistakes before we’ve committed them – there is hardly a greater blessing that we can be granted.

When He came amongst us, his greatest force was exactly His humility and faithfulness to the road He had to take.

And if you feel you’re tempted to change the course of affairs – imagine how tempted one can be that can silence the wind and the waves. And stop complaining.

The more now that we are not left alone, like Mary was not left alone when she received John as son.

But providence is a tricky thing to speak of and one should be very cautious when touching this topic.

The lousy thing about ascribing everything to providence is the degree of difficulty of weaning ourselves off it. If we ever decide to, that is.

So seamless it is to put everything down to it. But when something utterly bad happens following out mistake it is not providence, not even a punishment from God. It is but pure logical consequence.

Also, if something happens just not the way we wanted the reason it happened is not certainly providence. Yes, it can be like this – if the final outcome will be becoming closer to God and fulfilling His will to the uttermost extent we are capable of.

But the silverline is that the only thing that can be taken for providence with certainty is when Gods intervenes directly to keep us from committing a sin.

To deviate from the impersonal line I am trying to adopt – here is an example I had recently: when one of my favourite death metal bands – unfortunately for me and my listening habits, not exactly Christian – as it is typical for the genre – announced a record in March or April containing a swearword already in its title.

Hard as I tried, whenever I pressed the place order button I received an error message. I did not contact their customer service. I tried it several times and I knew God did not want me to order anything entitled like that.

Months later I visited the label’s store again and the limited edition vinyl I had been trying that desperately to order was listed as sold out.

Once again I knew it was God’s decision and as such, there was nothing better (notice: not using the «nothing left but») than to accept it. Yes it hurts, like a job offer you narrowly mised out on.

But these are those wounds in the soul that blast open to let light shed in. Let you see better – what, in fact, the other side of providence is.

So be it a terrorist act or a storm ravaging in the South of France or a tower in the heart of London pillaged by flames, no need to hurry to call it providence. Listen to your heart and if you feel sincerely no responsibility for it, though you are affected by its impact, thank God. This will enable you to get closer to Him even though this was not intended to help you steer away from the wrong path. For even so, such events are capable of helping you stick to the right one. The only one worth walking.